If time has set on us to be parted.I will understand and "abang tak akan salahkan dotdot(I ler sapa lagi)".I will blame it entirely on me because I didn't(tak pernah langsung ok)make the effort that u wanted so much in this relationship.
Then apa lagi?I left him and menikah to lelaki hini,after that boleh pulak kelua statement yg I ni mata duitan that why I menggeletis nak menikah cepat2.What about kata2 diatas tu bang?.Bukan ke you yang mengaku that you never make an effort to menikahi I even punyalah bertahun2 I tunggu u then you tak akan salahkan I.Bang,I left you for good.
I must add kata2 Bang Hj-"whatever the decision it may be,abang will respect it and honor with the utmost sincerity of myheart".Confident je kan you,bang.I do understand,that time binik you punya mood adalah horny day and night then she's bought macam2 for you so hati you banyak senang that why la you tak hengat I.Never mind la if I berambus pon but when binik you punya angin menopause datang, panas the whole body, semua benda tak kena then baru la you tahu nak terkenang2 kan I segala.Since I berambus,you selalu tak sihat.Eh bukan ke I ni kejanya memeningkan kepala hotak you?Tak mcm binik you yg so good itu that why you chose her instead of your ex-binik.I know bang,if I hungkit2 tis to you, sure you cakap"past is past la yang,don't ungkit2 ok"
Talk about Him, the ex yg kejap ok kejap puaka itu:lately ni I sangat la rindu bayangan to him but I tetapkan dlm hati,don't over reacting sangat!Sedar diri sikit.I hold my fingers to type about my kerinduan when everytime we both ber sms.suddenly terkenang la pulak janji2 palesu I to him.
"No matter what,b(stand for biah) tak akan tinggalkan d"
He told me,there will be a time when he will remind me of what I said.And he's did it.I have no words.Yes,I left him because I just can't take it anymore.Berpasangan dng jantan yg bimbo ni mmg sangat tak sihat but it's worse than hell bila berpasangan dng jantan yg panas baran and selfish(sapa lagi if bukan lelaki hini).That time my boiling rage reached to the limit I guess,alah mmg kejanya nak merempan je pon.Darah muda katakan.I talked to him in a very clear that i had enough,we need to go to a diffrent direction.Now tahu la I kesalahan I meninggalkan him dahulu,tak penah habis.If only I could turn back time,I'll never ever hurt him,i'll do better to him...
If takdir-Nya,I bercerai berai juga dng lelaki hini.I know that I'll never come back to Bang Hj because it's obvious to see yg Bang Hj itu bukanya benar2 centakan I pon if not da lama I pack mybag then back to KL.Just like what he's was offered me tu la.Beside that,I merempan nk bercerai berai not because I ni gila nak berjantan but because I tak tahan disakiti mentally oleh lelaki hini and I juga tak mungkin la back to him cause he's berpunya.But I wanted Bang Hj to know that I will always love him ,in my way.Even centa him is palesu!.And now am feel bad when I start to realize that I love HIM more than i loved Bang Hj.Sadly it's was too late.